Dad, When I look back at everything I realize that you had to be a strong man to take care of the family. I never thought about who hard that must have been; to take on a woman and her small child while trying to figure life out for yourselves. Like everyone else I wonder what things would be like if you were still here, where Tony and Taylor would be, how they would act. I remember how dorky you were but you didn't care, you were you. Going through the Jack in the Box drive through getting coffee before you dropped us off at Grandma Shirley's house..."Hello welcome to Jack in the Box what can I get for you?" And you would say, "A cuppa cuppa coffee!!!" in a high pitched voice while we listened to Dave, Shelley, and Chainsaw in the morning. "In the national baaah!" Like I said there are times when I think that I will walk through the doors when I go see mom and that big truck in the driveway is the one that you picked out, you guys finally got your house in the hills like you wanted; Alpine I think is where you and mom always wanted to go but when I walk through the doors you're not there and Tony is trying to be a father to Taylor and Reese while still trying to live his life. Now that torch has been passed to him and I find myself remembering when that was me only three years ago, having to be the strong one. Today was a hard day, its been four years and I thought it was going to get easier but I think that the thought of you passing and how it affects so many others peoples lives really got to me. Being on here and reading the things that mom and Tony have put on here that I had no idea about. I just want you to know that I love you and I am sorry for anything that I have ever done to make you feel like you weren't my father. Please watch over Mom, Tony, Taylor, and Reese and we will all see you soon.